Did I Ask For Fries?

Wow, it’s been just over 2 weeks since I last wrote here. How on earth did that happen? Those 2 weeks have positively flown by.

Every couple of days I am getting myself really worked up into a state that I know is not healthy, but what can you do? I have so much uni work to do it just isn’t funny. I’ve given up writing a ToDo list, because it just got longer and longer and every day I would add more items to it than I’d be able to tick off it. Day after day that becomes a bit depressing.

Sometimes it’s hard to know if my problem is with having unrealistic expectations, or if I am just not working hard enough.

I’d like to think it’s the former. I know I am definitely putting in a lot more effort this year than I was last year, but I don’t necessarily know if I’m getting more results from it. Sometimes I feel like I am just on the verge of having everything magically “gel” and I can suddenly understand how the brain affects hormone levels which then affects blood pressure. However 5 minutes later I can be in despair because I realise I’ve forgotten everything I knew about interstitial lung disease and I have to re-learn that again.

I need more time. And more sleep.

And possibly less coffee.

On Tuesday I was at the supermarket and accidentally bought a container of some kind of Jarrah coffee mix. When I picked it up off the shelf I thought it was hot chocolate, but upon opening it discovered I have bought some weird kind of powdery mocha type mix that has real coffee in it. Not conducive to a good nights sleep, but necessary to keep me going throughout the day.

Today I had to be out at hospital bright and early for a 7:30am tute. That is just ungodly. Crazily enough there is more traffic along Parramatta rd at 7am than there is at 10am. Oh how I long for the late starts of Neuro.

I was out of there by 2pm, so I shouldn’t complain. It’s allowed me to come home and make some kind of indentation on the waiting pile of messages in my Inbox I haven’t been able to reply to over the past couple of weeks.

Miracles may even happen too, and I might go for a jog. Or I could sit here and procrastinate further until it’s too dark to head out. This is why we should bring in daylight savings year round: to foil my procrastination attempts!!!